This post has been a long time coming. It is something I have been thinking about for several months. I am finally sitting down to try to put some of my thoughts into words. I pray that I am able to convey some of what God is teaching me.
From some of my previous posts, you may remember that my word for 2021 is believing. There have been so many ways that the Lord has used this word in my heart over the last several months. What He is teaching me now is something that I desperately need to learn.
Believing that God is good…
There is so much going on in the world today: illness, death, grief, political upheavals, weather disasters and the list goes on and on and on…Last week, my husband and I were getting ready to call it a night. Right before I turned out my light, the emergency alarm went off on my phone. Of course, it was all in kanji which we don’t read well. We finally figured out it was landslide warning. We have had so.much.rain!! There are floods and landslides throughout Japan. We are safe and live in a safe area from these particular kind of disasters. A day later, we were awakened by an earthquake at 5:00 a.m.! Talk about an adrenaline rush!! Some other things have been happening in our world here that caused my hubby to say recently, “Man, when it rains it pours!” Literally!
It can all be so overwhelming. Sometimes I may be wondering where God is in all of this. I believe that God is all-powerful and that He loves me. I believe as the children sing, “there’s nothing my God cannot do.” But will He?
“Thou art good, and doest good; teach me thy statutes.”
The psalmist here is appealing to the character of God. This is throughout Psalm 119. He talks of His faithfulness, His compassion, His righteousness and His mercy.* These are all things that make God and everything He does good. It’s all about Him and His character, not me and the circumstances I am facing. Jesus talked about faith as small as a mustard seed. These seeds are so small, I can hardly see them. God blesses that amount of faith.
I have been following the CaringBridge sight of someone who is dealing with a seriously ill husband. The journey has been long and hard, but her updates are full of God’s goodness. This week, I listened to a podcast series featuring Stephanie Wesco. Her husband was shot and killed 12 days after they arrived in Cameroon to serve the Lord as missionaries. As I listened, I heard a testimony of God’s goodness in spite of such a horrific loss.
It is difficult to read the CaringBridge updates through the tears. I sobbed through part of the podcasts with Stephanie Wesco. I want that kind of faith, but I don’t want the trials and hardships that grow that kind of faith. I have had to confess that to the Lord multiple times. I know He already knows. I pray that I will be willing to endure whatever He allows in order to grow my faith.
I think David sums up my thoughts perfectly in Psalm 27:13. “I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” May we all take his admonition in verse 14 to heart. “Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.”
*Notes shared from the MacArthur Study Bible